Archive for October, 2013

I’m So Excited
October 23, 2013

Ok, an update.

I went to the doctor for my checkup and since last visit, I’ve lost a pound. I thought, “wow, all that work and it’s a pound”. The doctor said I’m not eating enough. She also said to stay away from the scale. Where have I heard that before? (Trainer, Bonnie, Emily, my kids, etc.)

So a bit discouraged, but glad the report is good, we went to buy me another pair of jeans as we’re leaving for North Carolina this week with friends. Before I started “MY Walk To 199”, I was size 48. Currently in 44’s, I wondered if I was losing inches, because that’s what everyone says, but not weight. I’ve added a weight lifting program to my routine, and my legs are more muscular from all the walking, but I don’t want to kid myself.

My son Luke hands me a size 40 and said to try them on. I grabbed a size 42 and said I’d be happy if that fits. Well I put on the 40 and they actually fit. They didn’t fit bad, a little tight in the thighs. The 42 fit perfectly. I decided on the 42, and hopefully will get into the 40’s when I’m back from Carolina.

I can’t believe that I fit into the 40, and am now, quite comfortably, wearing a size 42. I understand that is still big, but it is 3 sizes dropped. So don’t lose hope. It works if you work it.

My weight is obviously shifting, as I’m losing my belly and gaining muscle. I’m very motivated to continue working out and getting in shape. Even though the weight is at a standstill, I’m losing inches.

Weight: 262.0, but it doesn’t matter, does it?

Helplessly Hoping
October 11, 2013

It’s funny about losing weight. Or at least trying to lose weight. The scale can be your best friend, but more than likely it’s your worst enemy. How many times have you felt “great” about yourself, only to step on the scale and it deflates you like a Macy’s balloon the day after Thanksgiving? If you’re like me, a lot.

I try to avoid the scale, but I’m an addict. Everything I do is addictive. When it was alcohol, it was to excess. When marijuana, also to excess. Eating? Excess. Weighing myself is addicting. Yet I hate it.

I said I’d weigh myself once a month. That didn’t last long. Even Chris the trainer said to get off the scale. But I keep going back. How pathetic.

I keep helplessly hoping I lose weight even though the eating thing is not under control. I exercise very regularly, which is really my therapy, however, this eating thing is so trying for me. My mother was a Mistretta, and Mistrettas’ are notorious sweet eaters. My motto? I’d rather eat cake than steak.

So, stepping on the scale “hoping” to lose weight without doing all I can to make it happen. Too many birthday parties, church dinners, etc.  But enough with excuses. I have to do this. This isn’t for how I look (although I must modestly say I’m starting to look pretty fantastic) but for my health.

Bonnie’s cousin Mitch has lost a HUGE amount of weight. He looks great. I ask him what he weighs and he said he doesn’t know. I ask him what he used to weigh and he said he doesn’t know. He doesn’t own a scale.

So I’ll “try” not to weigh myself. But it’s not easy when you need that “number” to encourage you. As my friend Emily (who has a great Facebook page you need to follow called “Establishing a New Emily) says, “Don’t let numbers define you”.

Ok, I will push on. I know I got this. I’ve been on this step of weight almost as long as Oprah is on a glazed ham. But, I’m a realist and have to do what I have to do. God is good. Whether I’m fat or skinny, God is good. And He is my ever present help.

Weight: 262.8

Hello It’s Me
October 2, 2013

No excuse.

I’m lazy. It’s been over a month (I missed September) and no blogs. I apologize to those who look forward to them. I feel awful and will do better.

I have “retired” from my job at the hospital. I am loving life, right now. It’s been 18 years I’ve worked there, and trust that the good Lord will take care of me (He always has). It’s quite exciting.

I did almost a three mile walk in the park with my beloved Bonnie, no weight training today, as I realize I need to do something to be more consistent.  So I will plan on getting up early, even though it’s not necessary for work. But tomorrow I’m taking off as I got a ticket for my birthday from my son Ben to see the Browns/Bills game. Me and my boys haven’t been to a football game together, so we will now.

I had my birthday October 1. Fifty-eight years. I’m in better shape than when I turned 57 and plan on even better shape for my 59th and 60th. I got to spend time with Emily Alexander, who is doing a phenomenal job of losing weight and doing it the right way. If you’re on Facebook, follow her page, “Establishing a New Emily”. It is worth your time. And if you’re looking for humor, insight, and down to earth talk, if you’re on Facebook, follow “Luke’s Brain Chunks”. It’ll be worth it.

It’s always a time of reflection on birthdays. Thankful for life. Happy that God has brought my kids all home and I have Haniah, my granddaughter. Life is good for me.

Autumn in western Pennsylvania is remarkable. Love the changing of the leaves (a bit early this year) and the park nearby is phenomenal. So blessed, and determined to live life to the fullest.

I am the happiest I’ve ever been. Until I get to 199. I will.

Today: 262.