Archive for January, 2014

For What It’s Worth
January 29, 2014

“There’s something happening here. What it is ain’t exactly clear”.

Yeah, somethings up and I don’t know what it is.

Haven’t felt like blogging and haven’t felt like doing much of anything. It’s been well over two weeks, I think, since the last blog. I just got something going on, and I’m not sure what. But I do know, that it is going to be good.

I haven’t exercised since (let me check my notes) January 9th, and the desire to do so has evaporated like Obama’s approval rating. Not depressed (I gave myself the Beck Depression Inventory test, and I’m ok), just, I don’t know, I think I’m in transition.

I think I’m moving into a new area. Not sure exactly what but I’m moving on to something. So let me just ramble.

I’m finding out about God’s grace. I don’t quite have it all yet, but I’m getting it. There’s a lot of freedom, but it doesn’t give me license to continue to sin. So, with God’s grace, I’m getting closer to God.

Bonnie and I went and saw Beatlemania last week, and what great memories. They sounded just like the Beatles, and looked pretty close to them too. The guy looked and sounded just like McCartney. My favorite was always George Harrison, and this guy was fantastic with his guitar playing also. Great memories. Can’t believe 50 years ago they were on Ed Sullivan.

Bonnie and I have been going to the movies every week for the past 5-6 weeks. It’s our weekly date. We just saw “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty”. It’s a pretty interesting story of a guy who lived in his head, but then began to experience some great things by stepping out in real life.  It brought me to where I am tonight.

See, so many times I live in my head (don’t we all? Future plans, what you could do if you had the money, time, or courage). As I watched this movie and saw how he had taken the leap to fully go after something (meeting a photographer), I realized that my Christianity, my walk with Christ, has been mostly in my head. Oh, I’ve been faithful to Him more, but that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m not talking about trying harder.

I’m talking about giving it all. 100%. No holds barred. Diving in head first. Leaving it all out on the field. Not in a religious sort of way, but in a “loving Christ” kind of way. It’s easy to say you love God ( or anyone) but not as easy to walk it out, being faithful when you don’t want to be, not lashing out when you want to, taking the consequences of telling the truth. You get the picture.

So I’m studying more. I’m reading more. Books on Christian theology, novels by men who love Christ, and the Bible.  1 Timothy 4:8 says, “For bodily exercise profits little, but godliness is profitable unto all things”. So, I am not giving up on losing weight. I know I will get back to where I need to be mentally in regards to this, but there is such an excitement for falling deeper in love with Christ.

I know some of you think, “Oh great, a religious nut. I thought this was about weight loss”. Well, it’s both. Though I’m not religious (but possibly a nut), I am passionate for Christ. I fear many that read this say, “I’m a Christian”, and live lives the opposite of His teaching. I’m not talking perfection, but a move toward godliness.

I find I need to eliminate distractions. Ever see the commercial where these athletes are on the bus and crowds are yelling stuff at them? They slip on their headphones and it drowns out the distractions. That’s where I’m at. I’m putting the headphones on to block out the distractions.

What are the distractions? Social media. Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, even Pintrest. All these things are distractions that occupy too many large blocks of my time. Are they bad things? No, not in moderation. But they distract. I haven’t decided if I’m keeping them or if I will just casually use them, if I can do that. I have kind of an addictive personality.

So, sorry for the delay in blogging, but I guess I’m just trying to figure me out. Hope you stay along on the journey until I do, because, man, it’s gonna be awesome. Something is happening here. I’m excited to find it.

Weight 262.2 (Not bad for being a slouch this month).

If I Fell
January 11, 2014

So about four days ago, I fell down my basement steps. Yep, I did. Actually, not all the steps.

Have you ever gone down the steps and thought you were at the bottom step, but there was one more? Yeah, me too. I hit the ground knee first, ended up on the ground on my back, glasses one direction and phone the other. So, other than a hurt knee, daily headaches, and bruised ego (“I’ve fallen and I can’t get up”), I’m ok, just sore. Real sore.

But I pushed through this, continued to do the treadmill, and watched my diet. Well until yesterday. We were celebrating anniversaries and I ate some pasta and didn’t exercise. So, yeah, took the day off. But today is a new day.

I’m finding that I’m not like those guys you see on the videos. The guys on You Tube where they lose 130 pounds in a year. These guys change their eating completely, exercise rigorously, and don’t take days off. I’m not like that, I guess. I am living life, but watching what I eat most of the time, and exercising more often than not. That, apparently, is my reality in this “Walking to 199”.

So, I haven’t lost 130 pounds, but since March I’ve lost 26. I was at 30, but put a couple pounds on. I still have two months until March and should lose thirty by then, again. But if I lose 30 pounds a year, I should hit 199 in 26 or 7 months. That works for me.

I’ve found I can maintain my weight, but I’m not at a weight I want to maintain. So I know when I get down to my weight that I will maintain it. I’m finding that diets don’t work, well, they do in the short term, but they don’t work as a lifestyle.

We head up to Erie today to visit Bonnie’s cousins (well, my cousins too by marriage), and we will probably eat. No, I know we will. So I will enjoy the day yet try to be careful. I will do the treadmill again as soon as I’m finished with this blog. I try to be consistent. At least fairly, consistent.

I’ve laid off the weight training for now, focusing on cardio and trying to focus on weight lost. I will focus on looking like the Hulk when I drop some more weight.  Beast mode can wait. I’ve realized that I can’t continue to enjoy cake or cookies more often than not, but just occasionally, like once a week or so, as a treat. I’m a cake eater, thanks Mom.

So, I want to encourage anyone else on this journey, whether it’s weight, addictions, whatever. Live life. Love life. Fight hard for what you want. Pray. Trust God.

Weight: 160.2

Stand Tall
January 4, 2014

(Stand Tall is a song by former lead man of the Guess Who, Burton Cummings)

Old habits die hard.

I heard a saying that if you do something for 30 days, it becomes a habit. For example, eating healthy, or exercise. Well I’d been doing pretty good, but since December 13th, haven’t taken any walks toward the 199 I want.

I’ve been eating poorly and not exercising. Weight is at 164.2 this morning. But, although I’ve lost ground, maybe have lost some battles, the war still rages. There are two options: quit or fight. I choose to fight.

Hopefully you’ll learn from my mistakes, and that’s what this is about.

A mindset can be molded, but it must be maintained. It can be solidified, but can also became liquified. But even though I consider this a huge setback, I know that through Christ’s help, I’ll do this.

Isaiah 50:7 says “But the Lord God helps me; therefore I have not been disgraced; therefore I have set my face like a flint, and I know that I shall not be put to shame.” So I will set my face like flint. I know that God will help me.

Reading over the pasts posts on this blog, there are lots of failures. Many screw ups.  I should be further along than I am. But, as the saying goes, “it is what it is”.

This blog will hopefully encourage those who are struggling with not just weight, but other issues. This is a book about life. The successes and failures, ups and downs, good and bad.

The holidays kicked my butt. I got lazy, and I got sidetracked. I admit my mistakes, now lets move on. We can’t lay in self pity and have a party. Acknowledge what we’ve done, don’t make excuses, don’t be a victim, admit our weaknesses, and move on. I will, and hope you will do.

This is not the end of the story. It’s a chapter. We will look back on these instances, and do what we’re called to do. That is to succeed.

This is all part of what my goals are for 2014. No excuses. Take responsibility. Not have a victim mentality. Not to complain. Be a doer of the Word and not a hearer.

You with me?

Lazy Days
January 1, 2014

January 1, 2014

“Lazy Days”

Well Happy New Years to all of you. Hope you’re all safe and warm and are relishing in the fact that you are alive in 2014, because, seriously, haven’t you wondered how you’re still here? lol.

It has been a lazy few days since my last blog. After being so proud of myself that I made it through Christmas with no exercising and eating what I want, I stumbled (not drunkenly) into 2014 with a weight of 262.2. Not, and I repeat, not acceptable.

So do I complain? No. Here’s what I’ve come to in my old age (along with the realization that next year I will be 60 years old). When I decide to go off my strict eating and exercise pattern, I do so with absolutely no guilt. No anguish. No shame. I have learned that living life is exactly that: living life. And if I decide to eat what I want when I want, I do so with enjoyment. Actually, much enjoyment. But here’s the thing.

It’s for a short season, a brief time. Always focused on the goal of 199, I realize that I will take a detour on this road. But never follow the “other” road for a great length of time.

So enjoy.

I’ve also decided to cut back on Facebook, but to increase “My Walk To 199” blog and to utilize twitter. I think that this blog may be helpful and also it may reach a larger group that can benefit from it through Twitter. My goal in 2014 is to be less political, more spiritual, more health conscious, and more fun. Hard to imagine “spiritual” and “fun” in the same sentence, isn’t it?

I think Jesus had a great sense of humor. I think He enjoyed life to the fullest. I don’t think He got hung up on little things (like stores not being allowed to say “merry Christmas”), but focused on his message of reconciliation and love. I think He loved everyone, yet loved them enough to point out their need for a savior, and that He is that Savior.

I saw a poster years ago called “Jesus Laughing”, and it showed an average looking fellow who was in a full blown laugh. I think Jesus laughed, and Scriptures tell us that He wasn’t particularly striking so that people would not follow him because of his looks. He was an average looking man, yet fully God.

So that’s it. If on 1/1/14 I’m at 262.2, I truly plan to be in my 240’s by my trip to Florida in April. That will be totally up to me. I hope you are finding these helpful, the realness of this walk, with even my lazy days.

Feel free to follow me on Facebook (I’m the Joe Marzano whose picture is with me walking with my wife on the beach), Google+, or twitter. (@joemarzano3).

I’ve gotten some great comments and feedback from you all, and it is appreciated. Let’s do good in 2014. Let’s reach our full potential for what God has for us this year.

We got this. It’s going to be a good year. I got a Facebook friend request today.

From Jim Paynter.